small

very small

holding in 

energy still, not wishing to expend

or expand

wanting to be 

just be

not do, not think, not figure it out, not plan

just be

contracting my energetic circle

to include just a few

just those whom 

i trust

who

have been with me

through it all

and will be through it all to come

great spirit willing

so lucky am i 

to have met you

showing me other ways

than those with which i was conditioned

what is the point to life other 

than our spirit's evolution?

than our soul's satisfaction?

is that to be found in cultural ideas of success and meaning?

must we conform to being worthy, 

through ego enriching feats of accomplishment?

there is a vast universe that exists

beyond the fickle constructs of humans

we are trapped in mental fictions, 

a very small and limiting collectively agreed-upon reality

being told it is all there is, we know no better

and diminish our potential to meet those parameters

stepping outside of delineated borders

is a process, continual, 

needing attention

and intention

stepping outside of the prescribed realm 

leaves one exposed

(but free)

and so i draw my own energetic circle 

of being, which protects me 

while also connects me 

to the unlimited infinite of the universe

the true potential